Teachings that Can be so Bittersweet

It has been a while since I last wrote something on here. I wish this post could be more uplifting but at last, the Lord does not promise that this life will be easy.
Brett and I found out about a month ago that we were expecting our first child! We were so excited and couldn't wait to tell everyone. Even though this was our first response, we knew that it was wise to just wait for a few more weeks before we told the world (from the mountain tops if we could!)
Unfortunately, yesterday things made a turn that we had feared even before we got pregnant. It was confirmed today that our little pumpkin went to be with the Lord and that we would not be able to greet our little peanut this fall. While devastation hit yesterday, a sort of peace came over both of us today.
Lately I have been struggling with understanding God's love. People have told me my whole life that the Lord loves me. But what does that look like? Through this experience, I am starting to understand. One verse that Brett encouraged me to memorize during the pregnancy was one of the best ones that I could have learned.
Nahum 1:7 - The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble; he cares for those that trust in Him.
How powerful! Here is where I see his love for me: I have a husband that displays Christ daily. He has cried with me and held me throughout this whole thing. I have a family that bends over backwards to feed us or to come and led kisses and hugs after their own busy days. Brett and I are surrounded by believers, both at work and at church, that pray for us continually and offer support that could not come from just anyone. The Lord is showing his love for us through each one of these people in my life. I cling to his promise that he is my refuge. Today, I found myself praying, telling the Lord that I am so happy that my baby gets to be with Him and that someday, I will get to be with the two of them as well. What more could I ask for? My baby is not lost, but is comforted more than I ever could here on earth. While Brett and I still mourn, we look at this time to be together, to love on one another, and to look to our Savior, remembering that He is Sovereign. He does not make mistakes. This baby was not a mistake and losing him/her was not a mistake either.